I was looking around on google today searching on the term, “soul searching” because I too, have been looking for myself over the past few months. When I read, “It’s taken many days and nights of discomfort to realize that I was upon a major [...] shift”, all I could think of were the past few months of my life; little to no sleep and a constant feeling of either anxiety or depression (sometimes both) have been the thoughts and feelings ruling over my life.

Since October I’ve been trying to figure out what’s wrong and I’ve been trying different things and coming up empty handed each time. Today I began trying to figure out what it is that I like so much about life, what it is that I have to be happy about, what it is that I enjoy. I was unable to list much of anything that I feel really excited about right now.

Over my recent past there have been several tragic events in my life, and after each I tried to continue living the way I was as if nothing had happened. In October one could say that everything caught up to me. I’ve been living in a shell and right now I just want out!! How I find the way out will be a journey I’m sure, but I want to start.

Thank you for reading this, and thank you even more for writing your story. It’s helped to convict in me that I need to spend some time on myself (while I’m still a college student with few responsibilities).

God Bless,
Ryan